I feel really bad about how little I've been popping in here lately but...oh well. I didn't pop in and that's that. May as well tell you what's been going on lately, right?
Well, life has been rough. In August, I was wrongfully fired from my gig at OfficeMax and, because it was about an absence caused by disability, it was actually RULED as wrongful! WHAAAAAAT. Crazy, right? Human resources actually taking care of their people? I got reinstated at a different OfficeMax and it's better than the old location but I kind of hate it. I'm trying to get into a steady child care job right now because I'm a little miserable with my work right now.
September was steady enough, just working, eating, sleeping, lather, rinse, repeat. I started dating someone I used to work with (he's about two and a half years younger than me, a senior in high school, turns eighteen on Saturday) over the summer and fall so much of September was spent having that classic high school romance that I absolutely missed out on when I was actually in high school. We shared our first kiss in October and it was everything I'd been daydreaming of for the last year since I'd met him. This boy his been a saving grace in my life, even though he's flaky and it's hard to find time to see him, what with him having school in the day and everything.
October was also really fucking rough because my cousin and I had a huge falling out. She and I were basically sisters and I invited her to my annual Halloween party and, rather than just saying she couldn't make it, she fed me this whole Jesus piece about how uncomfortable I make her and how I made her uncomfortable at these parties and how religion was the only joy she had in life and it just really fucking hurt because I've not only been like her sister, but I've also been her part time caretaker. I took her to her high school registration because her divorced parents couldn't be bothered to do so.
I also had a small falling out with a friend from high school and I really hope we can patch things up but it isn't looking good. I'm rooting for the underdog that is the shambles our friendship has become, but I don't know if it's gonna make the cut this time. I hope it does.
I've just been really lonely and, despite my quick trip to Disneyland last week, things have been pretty lonely and monotonous. However, in our darkest times, the light we find will shine brighter than it would at any other time. Maybe I'll find a candle and some matches and maybe somebody can lift me out if they see my S.O.S. shining bright enough from the chasm I'm in and maybe, just maybe, things will go onward and upward from here, my friends. I sure hope they're going onward and upward for you all.
That's it for now, for those of you who were kind enough to wade through this wave of loneliness I just sent out with this journal. Until next time, thanks for being here for me. I appreciate you all and everything you do to keep me going. Over and out.